4.15.2010

No pictures today, sorry. With Brian gone it's hard to take pictures and keep track of Anna at the same time. She is also camera shy so as soon as I get the camera out, she turns the other way. So what have I been doing since Brian left... shopping of course. I spent the afternoon yesterday at a children's market and went back to the island today for more shopping. I wasn't quite sure what to even buy the first time but I'm getting the hang of it now and can think of lots to buy- sorry Brian. Anna has been quiet lately. I want so badly for her to want me but completely understand her perspective. I think she thinks I am just the person taking care of her at this point in time. She is so willing to go with anyone who speaks to her in her language. Sometimes I am watching her and she looks like a lost soul. It just breaks my heart. She is so well mannered and will do whatever she is told in Cantonese. I know it will change when we get home but is a daily reminder that love and relationships take time and this little girl has a long way to go before she trusts in me and our family. She will need a lot of time to grieve and that is O.K. I'm sure her siblings will help as they are so anxious to get her home. They are all so cute talking to her on Skype. I am doing some paperwork this afternoon then going out for ITALIAN food with our new friends for dinner. My mom arrives at midnight tonight. Poor mom will be so tired and we have a busy day tomorrow. Luckily Anna naps every day so that means she can nap too. I promise to work on picture taking because I know that is all everyone wants to see and I can't blame them. She is after all an adorable little girl!

2 comments:

  1. Jen, I have been following your blog and met you through RQ. We will be traveling next month and I am learning how you are so graciously handling your daughter's adjustment. You sound like a wonderful mother who is putting her daughter's needs first. You both are blessed to have one another. I pray that the time you have left together in China will grow your relationship that much closer. Paige

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  2. Jen, I am so thrilled to see pictures of you, Brian and especially little Anna. What a JOY! We are thinking of you and praying for you all and can't wait to meet Anna. Janie is excited for her playdate with Callie next week! Wishing you all the best. Molly

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